About Me

My defining characteristic is that I am a wife to a simply amazing and remarkable man, David, and the mom to four beautiful, vivacious and loving young daughters: Rachel (9), Alexis and Courtney (8) and Olivia (5).  The story doesn’t start there, though, as I was once a New York City dwelling, Wall Street executive.  I loved that life and gleaned a real sense of accomplishment from the success I had in my career and the confidence required for city-living.  BUT I love this life even more!  David and I worked very hard to have a family and, although, it is tough at times, our daughters have given me deeper meaning in life and more joy and love than I could have imagined.

In the transition from the corporate world, where I earned commissions, bonuses, stock options and promotions, to the world of being a wife and mom there was one thing lost that  I truly valued.  And that was the feeling of accomplishment.  I knew when I won the client, made the sale, earned the commission or bonus and, certainly, when I was promoted that I was doing a good job and my efforts were valued.  As a mom, many times I just feel like an abject failure.  (More on that later.)  David is always quick to complement me on my mothering skills and Rachel even thanks me for “being such a great mom” but I haven’t gotten a gold star, raise, bonus or promotion in ten years!

Please, don’t get me wrong, there is a tremendous amount of personal fulfillment from what I am doing and the benefits are really great, too.  (My favorites are hugs, kisses, cuddling, incredible smiles and vacations free from checking in at the office.)  But what I don’t regularly feel is that I have accomplished something tangible.  It is not about accolades or money but rather the “I worked hard and this is what happened” feeling.  I did experience a tremendous sense of accomplishment when I had my girls but now that it is such a “work-in-progress” it feels a bit different.  Am I doing a good enough job, teaching them the right things and helping them to be the best they can be?  I just don’t know for sure.  What I do know is that I love them dearly but is what I am doing enough?

This is where CrossFit comes in as it not only feeds me physically but emotionally, as well.  That feeling of accomplishment washes over me regularly as it relates to CrossFit.  I worked hard and now I can do a: pull-up, push-up, snatch (couldn’t do even one when I started!) and deadlift.  Sometimes, even RX shows up next to my name on our white board after a workout – huge for me!  So, what leads me to focus more and work harder if I have already accomplished these things.  That’s just it with CF, there is no end game, you can always get stronger, faster, tougher and more skilled.  I haven’t done a handstand push-up, muscle-up (there are a lot of “ups” in CF) or a 24 inch box jump yet and I want to!  I want to be more proficient at pull-ups and for push-ups to come easier as I fight for every one.

It has been almost two years since I began this journey yet I only feel like I have scratched the tip of the iceberg!  So, I begin my Morphin 99 under the guidance of my coach, Andy Mahaney, with a new focus, goals and objectives and a thirst for more of that sense of accomplishment that I so crave.  (I guess that is better than a craving for ice cream!)  There are other things that I would like to gain, as well, and I plan to talk about those in more detail as my journey progresses.  Wish me luck!


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